struggling to find something that will *ACTUALLY* HELP me.

i was just thinking while doing my standing exercises this evening about when i went to a physical therapy appointment in gillette and they put some scanner thing over my body and it somehow helped my balance. i think my balance was worse then but i'm not sure if it'd help me now.. i'm willing to try anything (but mindlessly attend some overrated pathetic excuse of a "rehabilitation center" more time and money for my services NOT to help me progress in my condition, only waste my time). another major reason why i'm moving is because NO ONE that supposedly "cares" about me is willing to take my opinion of the dump into consideration like i'm actually telling the truth because they could care less about my life and what's REALLY best for me if it doesn't benefit them in some way (except JOE of course.. who is more than likely from the more intelligent side of the family..). amanda gets benefits from me attending that shithole because her in-law is a physical therapist there and she'd appear "caring" and "supportive" for getting her another mindless, vulnerable client to RE-attend the sorry excuse of an "institute"! ever consider ACTUALLY COMMUNICATING with your family member who you're supposedly SUPPOSED to actually assist them in becoming successful and productive?! *GASP* i remember talking to my psychologist a while ago about this and she said the problem with my family is that they don't communicate- i try to talk to them and it doesn't matter (she acknowledged that i actually make an effort to communicate with them and i DON'T mean talking to my mom about her damn dogs). another reason why i don't see a reason to remain in a state where communicating with people who SUPPOSEDLY "care" about you is like pulling teeth. i don't see any reason to try to make shit work between us when it would require me to sink down to their level because MISERY LOVES COMPANY! do the work to make yourself decent fucking people or kiss my ass and leave me alone. i'm not dealing with this shit anymore. i'm just gonna continue trying to get a decent job to take my mind off my bullshit life.